On May 1, 2011 our families world was changed forever. Allison (our middle child) was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes - but life as we knew it could not stop. All of our activities and our other children did not change just a new twist on how to manage this new world. Figuring it out together is challenging and this is our new world.....

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

It is your choice to make.......


January 9, 2013

Today there was a post by a friend on Facebook that is really hurting a little bit but ringing true to me right now.

Here is the quote:
“Everything you do is based on choices you make.  It’s not your parents, your relationships, your job, the economy, the weather, an argument or your age that is to blame. You and only you are responsible for every decision and choice you make.”

Over the past year and a half I have blamed diabetes for EVERYTHING in my life. It completely changed my life and I have lived for the past year and half blaming it and making it the thing that is running my life and therefore making all my life choices for me.

I made decisions such as limiting my work load and doing things close to home (therefore forfeiting a well paying job that gave me purpose) because I thought it was I needed to do because of diabetes. It was my choice. I can say I had the BEST summer of my life last year though with my kids but what did I give up with that choice.

The quote is right. It wasn’t and isn’t diabetes that has me where I am today. It is me. I currently may not like a lot of the aspects of my situation, but it is in my power to change what I don’t like. Yes I am working on making those changes – so don’t be surprised one day when you hear what I am doing next!

I have unfortunately been blaming diabetes too long now for my choices. I am going to stop wondering where I would be now if diabetes hadn’t crashed my party. It is a part of our lives and one I have to accept – that too is a choice I have to make.

So here you go – my choice is to not let diabetes run my life – or my daughter’s life – any longer. I will do everything in my power to be a part of the cure and education of others, I will help my daughter manage it day and day out (because I want my daughter to live) BUT it will not make decisions for me anymore. I will not forfeit my life or happiness for this horrible monster any longer.

Note to my friends: Remind me of this the next time I am not motivating myself in the right direction!

Until there is a cure,
Jennifer Holdgreve

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